Moon Geun Young posted this long sincere letter below at DCBH at 1:26:12am KST on May 17, 2012 in the midst of her cyworld conversation with fans late at night. 'Dominus' (도미너스), along with 'KingReview' (검토대왕), are a couple of the many nicknames given to Moon Geun Young aka Bong by fans.
Title: Bears Who Cause Headache Makes Dominus Leave a Letter- chongchongchong
By: KingReview
Um....
Today I, at least similar to all of your hearts, did something for another person.
In that situation, the other person did not take it for granted (i.e. as a matter of course).
And so, as a result, I really was crying, and was moved.
But in that moment, I thought of all of you.
Ah. That I was able to make a moment like today because of something that you have all done for me.
Ah. That this was probably the heart that you felt.
The thing that I have felt up until now (as the receiver), today's counterpart probably also felt,
The cause for my crying today (as the giver), that that was probably the heart that you all felt.
And so, I'm thankful, and so with a different meaning than before that I wanted to confess that I was sorry.
Truthfully.
Because I always just received so much.
Because I really disliked taking things for granted in that act of receiving.
And so I always felt really sorry.
Truthfully... who am I.(This too isn't good to say right? Hmm...)
But today was the first time that I was able to see things at least very, very little from your perspective.
And so I was mad at myself who said I was sorry even in a moment when I should've just been happy.
And that's why I was sorry.
And, of course, because of that, I was also thankful.
And truthfully-
Do you know right now that I'm completely jjambbonged (peaved)?
Because the long words that I so thoroughly contemplated about have flown awayㅠ
And so, I'm again thoroughly contemplating and writing again-
Since I think the words from before would not suffice, I'm sad.ㅠㅠ
But what I wanted to convey was...
Um... even though I'm still contemplating about it so much-
But because I thought I should leave a letter like this, that I felt I should still convey that something-
That I am thankful.
That because I received your love, after giving love that I have learned from all of you-
(Okay. I'll be proud of this. I even heard that I should set up my own (gift) event company. I wonder who this is because?kek)
And that I have once again realized, felt, and had these thoughts.
And so I wanted to say that I'm thankful once again.
It's simply just that.
Ah!
In regards to the part that you were worried about, 'If I continue to live like this, do live like this', I wish you all would not overanalyze it too much.
Just think of it as coming from some twenty-six year old kid(?), wandering youth, or perhaps, some person in her adolescence(I write that.. yes. It will be read as twelve years old-).
That I wish you'll see it as someone who newly realized something about life, and about happiness.
And that, this too, is simply just that.
In addition-
I too am trying really hard [to return to acting]. Since last year-
But you know in terms of human lives, it seems things don't always seem to work out the way they are planned or thought out.
And so I was sad,
But- Ah. That it seems that this was not the time. I'm trying to think of it like that.
For as much as I have made you all wait, I feel that I should give back to you/compensate you with an even better project and acting.
And also truthfully(today I'm being so truthful. chi-) (Do you know that) I feel a huge amount of pressure?
But I try hard not to feel pressured.
Since I think that that is not everything.
And that I am not just reviewing- That I wasn't- Chet-
Um....
I too also try really hard to not take you for granted.
To be straight- since you've been doing this until now, that you'll continue to do this.
For having always read my writings that are not necessary to read- no matter what I do, you'll read them-
I try really hard so that I don't ever have that kind of heart. (Well- now I've experienced a lot of headache moments-kekeke)
But I do possess a lot of responsibility.
Whatever I do- Whatever you choose to do for me-(In acting! Don't don't imagine anything else!!!)
That I should try to make it so that you're able to read it.-
That I should try to be an actress you're not embarrassed of.-
With that kind of heart, I try really hard.
Yes. hee-
Ah! Another thing that I realized. It seems I really can't write. [Moon is being modest. She's saying that because fans sometimes misunderstand her writings as she writes a bit ambiguously at times].
I probably shouldn't say that I was a Korean lit major.
What should I do? Should I create a Small House Reading Analysis class? [Moon refers to her Cyworld aka Minihompy as her 'Small House'] Are there people who would take (the class)? Yes?
Or should I not write?ㅠ
Anyways, because I wrote a pointless letter late at night-
That it seems that I have left you with this and that kind of worries, and thoughts, I'm sorry.
But that I am sincerely thankful! I wanted to tell you.
Yes.
Thank you so much. Really.
Some of the comments left by fans in response to Bong's letter above: ^0^
- There were already a lot of people who wanted to take the Moon Geun Young Reading Analysis class, but because there wasn't a professor for it.. the class hasn't been able to be in progress.. please do give us a special lecture sometime kekeke (문근영시 독해강좌 교수가 없어서 수강하고 싶은 사람들은 많은데.. 수업진행이 안되고 있거든요.. 언제 제대로 특강 좀ㅋㅋㅋ)
- Wow the letter is so refreshing kekekekekekkekeke (아오 글 너무 시원하다 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)
- 1 Line Sum-Up: Thank you. I love you kiss kiss kiss (an example of when overanalyzing is good) (1줄요약: 고마워요. 사랑해 쪾쪾쪾 (과잉해석의 좋은 예))
- Ah but the letter is so kekekekkekekekekeke funny (아 근데 글이 너무 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 웃기다)
- But why are you doing an event for someone ㅡㅡ (근데 누구한테 뭘 조공바치고 난리임 ㅡㅡ)
- This letter too, I'm going to overanalyze.. so tomorrow please explain to us again. (이 글도 다시 곱씹어서 해석할거니까..내일 또 해석해줘.)
- "You guys" (plainly) I cracked up out loud at that part ("노네들" 여기서 한번 빵터짐)
- And so I wanted to say that I'm thankful once again. => Behind thankful there's two spaces, what's the meaning of that? (sarcasm) (그래서 새삼스레 고맙다고 또 말하고 싶었던 거. => 에서 고맙다고 뒤에 스페이스가 두 번인데 이것의 의도는 무엇입니까?)
- Gift,, event this kind of thing you just receive don't do it for anyone....................... (조공,,이벤트 이런거 넌 받기만 하고 남들한테 해주지마.......................)
- Hey but out of all the letters that Moon Geun Young wrote this is the funniest kekekekekkekekekekkekekekekekkekekekeke (야 근데 문근영이 쓴글중에 제일 재밌닼ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)
- Hey capture this ... because she's probably going to be embarrassed and erase this a little later kekekekekekekekekekekekekekekek (야 이거 캡쳐해둬라 ...좀있다 북흐러워서 지우겠다 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)
- Bursting of jealousy.... this is the 2nd of the flying(knee kick)hug (질투심 대폭발... 제 2의 플라잉(니킥)허그 사건으로 기록됨.)
- There's no one like this in the world ㅠㅠ (세상에 이런 사람 없숨미더 ㅠㅠ)
- Quickly say that the person you gave the gift to is your parents, grandma, or teacher ㅡㅡ (빨리 선물한건 부모님이나 할머님이나 교수님이나 선생님이라고 말하라긔 ㅡㅡ)
- How much is the Reading Analysis Class? Does it also provide food? ㅠㅜ I want to be in the class Me Me (독해강좌 그거 수강료 얼마에여? 밥도줘요? ㅠㅜ 나 들을래요 저요저요)
- ㅠㅜFeel so thankful.. Moon Geun Young really does love us.. Ah so happy.. (ㅠㅜ왜케 고맙지.. 문근영은 진짜로 우릴 사랑하는구나.. 아 너무좋다..)
- I like it when we see her small house writings and try to interpret what she means, and play around like that.ㅋㅋㅋㅋ But if you do start a class. I'll definitely take it. When does it start?kekekeke (근데 난 작은집 글 보면서 해석하고 우리끼리 글케 노는거 좋은데.ㅋㅋㅋㅋ라짖만 강좌하면 듣겠어. 꼭 들을꺼야. 언제 개강함?ㅋㅋㅋㅋ)
- Ah I'm going crazy really ah Moon Geun Young (아 미치겠다 진짜 아 문근영)
- For writing a letter like this, thanks... It's okay even if you do take us for granted (which Bong, of course, doesn't ^^) just wish that you won't feel burdened ㅇㅇ (이렇게 글 써준거 고맙고... 우릴 당연하게 생각해도 좋으니까 너무 부담 갖지말았으면 좋겠다능 ㅇㅇ)
- Ah the letter is so great kekekekekeke Really it's so candid while reading it I can't stop laughing kekekekeke (아 글이 너무 깨알같아 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 진짜 허심탄회하게 툭까놓고 얘기한거같아서 막막 읽는데 웃음이 터져나옴ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)
- Because it's so truthful, because I can feel your sincerity so so much, I'm thankful. (정말 솔직해서, 너무나도 그 진심이 느껴져서 고마운.)
- I can't choose just one thing but every word, word-choice is so pretty.. (뭐하나 특별하게 꼽을 수 없을정도로 문장 하나하나 단어선택 하나하나가 너무 예쁘다..)
- You're a person that can't help but be loved Really. (사랑할 수 밖에 없는 사람이다 정말.)
- Dominus! Completely touched! Tears~ As expected, our king is the best!kekekekeke (도미너스! 폭풍 감동이! 눙물이~ 역시 우리 대왕님은 쵝오!ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)
- Bong! Thanks.. I've always felt this, and feel once again... That you're such a- warm person.... Really a person who I can't help but like.... Grateful and thanks... Love you~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (봉아! 고마워.. 항상 느껴왔지만 지금 또 느끼네... 참- 따뜻한 사람이구나.... 정말 내가 좋아 할수밖에 없는 사람이구나.... 고맙고 감사해... 사랑한다~~~~~~~~~~~~~)
- Ah such a warm woman ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ I'm really moved (아 이 따뜻한 녀자야 ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ감동이다 진짜)
credits to and translations by Soompi Moons
